I dun wanna be 20.. =(

I don't want 2010 to come.. cuz i wanna keep being 19. and 19 and 19 and 19. =(

But i'm becoming twentyyyyyyyyyyyyy! 20!! big number!

Guess who came! =)

Wishing everyone a...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! =)

ED

I love this guy and his role in Gossip Girls Season 3. He is the perfect kind of guy that i would fall for at the moment. Hahahaha.. When people ask me what kind of guy do i like.. Well, the way i explained would have sounded like i love bad boys. Hee hee.. But his role in Season 3 is what i meant. He's bad, smart in a way, thoughtful, sensitive and he loves his girl with the right amout of affection shown. I just LOVEEEE it! =)

But it's a movie afterall.. but i still love it!

Used to...

I know there's the switzerland trip i can talk about, kee kee's birthday.. all the outings..

I'll come to that i guess.. but just not this post.

I miss how i used to be.

=)

The old Jas Min was too naive. A bit stupid stupid one.

Come to think of it... i was very much a leader (tai ka che) in from primary 1 to 3.

Hee hee.. i bully ppl one. i dunno how i can get so good at getting back at ppl when we argue. i just always win. =P

I'm the one who lead my classmates to go play in the mud with me..

And we all got punished for stepping into the classrooms with our muddy shoes.

Have to stand in front. =(

And i lead my classmates to go dig for ''gold''. HAHAHA... Gold in this sense is broken pieces of china. Hee hee.. somehow there were tonnes of them in the ground and we spend half of our recess time digging them. And we keep them in a plastic bag near the toilet where the nenek bongkok stay. =P

Recess time!! We always run as fast as we could to the canteen. For me, not to be the first in line. But just to win the race. Hee hee.. I remember how we loved the goreng ayam which was SOOOO unhealthy but tastes so good. =) 50 cents for the smaller one and 1 ringgit for the bigger one. whee!

And i lead my classmates to decorate the black board during teachers day because our class prefects didn't decorate ours. We got jealous of the next door's beautiful blackboard. =(

And we challenge ourselves to go up the chapel stairs. And when we reach the top, we all ran down before we could see anything because we were scared. Hee hee.. it wasn't haunted after all.. We just like to think it is i guess. =P

And back then i hated prefects. Because they never listen. Hmph!

And they dun let us talk! Although we talk soft soft. That is so unfair.

Then it was PTS. i was in the hall for some event rehearsal when some teacher came and told lisa she got through it. and not long after that, i knew i passed it too... Well.. before i knew, i was jealous. I was asking myself if i was good enough to get through it. But after getting to know that i too got it, i was in dilemma. I didn't wanna leave my friends. I guess i just didn't wanna know another new group of people who are elder than me. And i start deceiving myself that i wouldn't be able to do it and that staying back was a better idea. My best friend back then cried and asked me not to proceed a year faster. And i made up my mind not to. I was a really stubborn girl back then. When i say no, means no. No matter how much you try to talk to me about it, save it. I went to the express class tuition though. Mum said, just in case i decided to change my mind. So fine.. i went.

My tuition teacher tried to persuade me, my cousins tried, my mum, my aunts, my school teachers all gave their shot. But i was stubborn enough. So i went to std 4 happily with all my books until mum came into classroom and asked me to packed up and go to standard 5. =(

So i went. =( I sat at the back. And that's when i started to change i guess. I was no more the bossy, hot tempered girl. But i'm still stubborn in some ways though. Mixing with a whole group of elder girls kept me in low profile throughout. And all the students who went pass PTS had to go to the second class of std 5. So i guess some of the girls were not as nerdy and nice initially. But i got along with them.. and they weren't that bad after all. I miss a malay girl. i forgot her name.. =( she changed school after standard 5 and i never knew where she went. =( her name starts with the letter D if i'm not mistaken. I still remember on the last day of std 5, we played till i nearly pulled her tudung off.. Whoever you are, i miss you! =)

Then i got back in first class in std 6. Well i got to say, i never regretted skipping std 4. My classmates are really nice!! Hee hee.. i sat with jenna. And there was this once i quarreled with her! but she din know i'm mad at her and she's still so nice to me.. hee hee.. childish me. =P and i was really close to patricia too.. =) i remember always sitting with her in computer classes. And we'll nudge each other in the hand when it's the other party's turn to answer the questions. =)

And due to the very talkative JAS MIN, i changed place a few times. hee hee.. i sat with neo li bing, and also lina. =) Neo li bing was fun. Lina was nice. I still remember li bing gave me the japanese name miyuki which i still love till today. Lina was a pretty quiet girl though.. with REALLY NEAT hand writting. She gave me a bookmark she made herself on the last day! I still remember i was really sick during the last few days of school and when i still wanna go to school to meet my friends. =)

However, some of us had to part because we got separated into different schools. =( My closest friends back then, jenna, patricia, ho swii fern, li bing and a few of my other classmates got transfered to a different secondary school. We tried to keep in touch with letters.. but sooner or later.. we got different group of friends.. But we're still friends now! =)

Then i got into secondary school....... =P and i'll talk about that in my next post!

Too bad i din have photos of me during my primary school with me now. =(

It was a bonfire night!

Yesterday i went a delicious dinner! =) the italian way.

Then i head off to the forest recreation ground for the event. There were lots of people. Lots of couples. Haha.. Kissing in every corner. =P Well that was beside the point. Met up with the rest of my friends, took loads of photos and waited patiently for the fireworks!

And it was time! I've got to say it's the best fireworks so far FOR ME. I heard there are nicer ones in disneyland anyway! I've got to say.. i felt like a kid instantly and i was happy inside. They come and dissapear.. again and again, surprising you with different colours and paterns. And i love how it feels they're falling on you.. =)

When it was all over, i head off to get my toffee apple! Hee hee.. Same one i got in the goose fair. Winson got the one with chocolate one though.. but i still like the one i bought.

I've got to say, i'm happy! Despite the fact that, my legs were cold and a little numb, and i was super tired due to 4 hours of sleep.

=)

patiently waiting. under the umbrella~ ella ella.. =)

one of my best shots.. =)

apples with chocolate coating!

My very own toffee apple!

I MISS...

I miss the times where i can laugh like crazy all i want with my friends.. Having no boundaries. Where i dun have to think before i talk because they know me too well to forgive me if i blurt it out. I miss going crazy with my friends doing crazy stuff... And i wanna get tattoo.. wahaha.. =P

A temporary one i think..

Hmmm... I wanna walk the streets at night with someone i love. I wanna climb to the highest tower and sit there with him. And i also wanna sit on the roof with him!

Well, dream dream dream. And when the purple skies come, i'm getting one wish granted!

Can't wait......!!

=) =)

...

I AM MORE ANGRY AFTER.

Ish.

PUT PUT!!

I have this little soft toy. The only one i brought to UK with me.. I LOVE IT SOOO MUCH! And it has been really lazy.

Always lying under my sheets sleeping. ALL DAY LONG.

I just love how it fits in my arms every night when i sleep!

Presenting little......



PUT PUT! muaks xoxo

It has been sometime...

I'm back after ages of not posting anything on my blog. Was just looking at my friend's blog.. and i figured it's a good thing to write it all out. I'm not gonna bother bout the capital letters or anything. i'll just type it all out!!

Months back, i was in malaysia. and now i'm at Nottingham. i hate it when i leave. somehow i just wouldn't stop crying. the voice of my mum made me shed tears like crazy. i cried quietly in the plane too. guess.. i'm mummy's girl. =) too many things happen back in malaysia. and coming here i start very much as a new person. not entirely... but partially. i go to classes like everyday..... my god. hahaha. i wasn't a person like this back then. not at all. but somehow i'm loving it.

the place's cool... everything's nice.. but something's misisng. and that is someone i can really really talk to. and i feel i'm not having enough fun. haha. i don't know why. i just feel i'm lack of fun. i have to read journals, do research, do technical report, dissertation, lab's coming up. and when it all ended, there come the exams and it falls on my birthday. =( it's always like that! hmph hmph hmph!

There are times i wanna be alone. I wanna walk the streets alone. I wanna lie down in the garden listen to the songs in my ipod alone. Having my own space. Part of me.. I enjoy being alone. Maybe because i've always do things alone.

But sometimes.. i can't deny it's really nice to have someone's shoulder to lie on. Someone you can wrap ur arms around.

Somewhere in me.. I feel lonely.

But i know i'm happy in some ways.

=)

I suddenly feel very tired.
I don't know what i want.
And i want the wrong things.
and i make a mess of it.

the TWO coloured dog! my love.. =)

hee hee.. i know somehow these aren't the posts you guys were expecting.. haha but sorry..
i'm too random. =P

wanna see a 2 coloured dog? haha..

tada! =) =)

it has two different colours...... hands, legs, ears, body, tail and eye!
and it is still as cute.. *hugs it tight!*

this obedient and adorable looking doggie is given to me by a very special friend of mine! and i love her much! =)

it's 6.51am...

AND I CAN'T SLEEP! i'm like super awake. =( =( =(
so i'm reading my management notes..
till my class starts at 10 later...