I'm back after ages of not posting anything on my blog. Was just looking at my friend's blog.. and i figured it's a good thing to write it all out. I'm not gonna bother bout the capital letters or anything. i'll just type it all out!!
Months back, i was in malaysia. and now i'm at Nottingham. i hate it when i leave. somehow i just wouldn't stop crying. the voice of my mum made me shed tears like crazy. i cried quietly in the plane too. guess.. i'm mummy's girl. =) too many things happen back in malaysia. and coming here i start very much as a new person. not entirely... but partially. i go to classes like everyday..... my god. hahaha. i wasn't a person like this back then. not at all. but somehow i'm loving it.
the place's cool... everything's nice.. but something's misisng. and that is someone i can really really talk to. and i feel i'm not having enough fun. haha. i don't know why. i just feel i'm lack of fun. i have to read journals, do research, do technical report, dissertation, lab's coming up. and when it all ended, there come the exams and it falls on my birthday. =( it's always like that! hmph hmph hmph!
There are times i wanna be alone. I wanna walk the streets alone. I wanna lie down in the garden listen to the songs in my ipod alone. Having my own space. Part of me.. I enjoy being alone. Maybe because i've always do things alone.
But sometimes.. i can't deny it's really nice to have someone's shoulder to lie on. Someone you can wrap ur arms around.
Somewhere in me.. I feel lonely.
But i know i'm happy in some ways.
=)